Questions, again

  1. Someone asked me in a “trà dư tửu hậu” today (btw, this is such a good term that I don’t think there is an equally good interpretation in English): “You have been living in Saigon for 6 years, do you feel like you are a Saigonese already?”. To which, I answered: “No, I don’t feel like I am a Saigonese, or a Hanoian (though I lived there for 6 years too) or an Nghe An-ese (where I grew up)”. My other friend summarized: “He is… up there”. Lol, literally, we had a good laugh. At the same time, I thought about the need to feel belonging somewhere.
  2. Today is Businessman (or woman) Day. I feel nothing about it. I have the same feeling for Teachers’ Day. And almost all the other Celebration Day. Oh sh*t! Then I realized, I did not have anywhere I could belong to when it came to career. I don’t think I am a Marketer, or an Educator, in its essence. I am just someone who knows (and knows really well) Marketing AND Education. But that’s it. Those are not my career labels, eventually. So what is mine? Hmmm.
  3. I watched a talk show by Dr. Duong Ngoc Dung recently, an interesting man. He is a Philosophy Teacher in a school. So… he said: “everyday I woke up and I expected the worst case scenario. That an accident might happen, that a project might fail, etc. And those thoughts keep me alive”. Of course there were more to that. Overall, that kind of approach, in a way, appeals to me, because I am the same. Firstly, I am an overthinker (everyone close to me knows that). Secondly, I am not really optimistic, I think the worst about almost everything and everyone (sorry, by the way). And because I expect the worst things ever, I never have to be surprised. I thought of the bad things before it even happened, and usually they don’t happen. That might sound terrible and miserable, but I do enjoy that approach. I mean, when God (or someone else) gives you an overthinking brain, the best thing you can do with it is to think of the worst and the better things just happen. Right?
  4. So my questions (always) are: Where do I belong? Is that a necessary question? What is the worst that can happen? And no, my friend, I don’t think we need to have an infinite, final answer to that. Isn’t life beautiful when you always question it, with your overthinking brain and a negative mindset.

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